Emptiness

You know the feeling of emptiness?

You're laughing your heart out but deep within you you know that you're in deep emptiness.

No matter how you smile, no matter how much you try to be okay but then again it all wasted.

It's like there's no more room to fix yourself and no more time to heal your wounds and no one's there to listen and no one's there to stay and you're being left alone to face your pain and miseries.

No one can see your pain and monsters and fears and troubles and hatred.

It's like you're not belong into this world. Life is an unfair battle. You cannot win without fighting and you cannot lose either without trying to fight. 

I feel so tired...hahaha(see I am laughing again)

I am kinda a laughing freak nowadays and my office mates starts to worry.

Little did they know that this is my last resort to hide every damage of my being. Well hello??? Am I not allowed to laugh and to smile on my own miseries? Hahaha!!!

It looks like I don't have a good morning at all. It is all the same anyway. Everyday of my everyday. 

 

P.S.

I wanna go home... But hey! I remember, WHERE IS MY HOME?

Fifty Shades of Grey: My short and simple movie review

Yey!
The feeling of fulfillment!

So it is high time to make this review after my sober state after watching the movie. So yeah, 5 days after the valentine's day I went out to see the movie. And I say, it is all worth the long wait. Why after 5 days? Because I don't want to be with so many people, I don't want to be inside the crowded cinema house so I waited that long enough to carry on.

I loved the movie. Giggling, ogling, laughing and name it, it's all in one package.Yeah, I did all that alone in my seat while sipping my iced-coffee. Hahaha!!! I can't help it, Christian Grey is so hot! Hahaha!

I felt like I am a teen-year old having a great crush again. That's what Mr. Grey did to me. :)

 I did not expect that the movie will turned-out a little funny(well, it is so funny)!
It is not too heavy.

The acting was great and well-portrayed. They act so well and good.

And what I loved the most is that the story sticks based on the novel itself.

I am the kind of person who loves reading before watching so I must say that I am not being disappointed this time.

So, there.. Overall rating: Very Good! :)

P.S.
I still have a crush on Mr. Grey.  Hihi

The Perks of being an Assistant

The perks of being me as the Executive Assistant of the Company's President.

Having a great hard-time dealing with too much work. I am not quite sure if multi-tasking is good because my current situation is a big hell-of-a-pain-in-my-head.

I'm currently handling two job at a time. I'm his eye in the Production Department doing hellish work like reporting and etc.. and at the same time I am handling one of the payroll account in the Accounting Department.

I am not used on turning down the opportunity given to me because I know this is for my own good.

But sometimes having a lot of work to do is too much.

Fifty Shades of Grey: The Fuckin'-licious novel-to-movie story

(Excuse the Title up there... :) )  Writer's mind attack!

Well, just to freshen up your mind pervs and not-so-pervs and innocent-but-polluted-minds, Fifty Shades of Grey was written by the great E.L. James. This is the first book from the not-so-hot trilogy story of E.L. James.(hot is so understated, mine-blowing is the best!)

Check this link to yourself to know a little bit further about this
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fifty_Shades_of_Grey

So for me being the addict reader of random novels, be it a soft or hard cover, pdf file or in wattpad, I am proud to say that I've already finished reading the trilogy via pdf file. So yeah, I have been through a lot of searching just to have a copy of this book way back then because as far as I can remember, there is no single copy being published here in the Philippines, so I just find my way through it with the help of the ever-helpful Internet and bingo- I've found the PDF file of it.

And now.... It is the February month and I've been living the hell-out-of-great-anticipation to this coming movie of the book itself. Yeah, they've gone through making it real. I've heard it will be out soon on February 14,2015 (of course not here in the Philippines but out there and I hope and pray that they will gonna get this movie and have it view here in the country because I know, a bunch of fans are waiting and dying to watch it big time)

Check the link to watch the trailer of the movie :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQERFnGvi_A


I love the sountracks in the movie, so sensual and so sexy and so steamy-licious all the same.

Crazy In Love
Written by Jay Z, Richard Christopher Harrison, Beyoncé Knowles and Eugene Record
Performed by Beyoncé Knowles (as Beyoncé)

Love Me Like You Do
Performed by Ellie Goulding

Earned it
Written by The Weeknd
Performed by The Weeknd

and Salted Wound by SIA 

Much awaited movie of the year. Ha-Ha!!!

Well, the story itself being published in a book-type-hot-and-steamy-genre is so GOOD!

I mean, it is great because it touched my imagination a lot and it made me cry a river, and it made me want to get a hot-billionaire boyfriend(where on earth will I going to find that kind of boyfriend, tell me.), it convinced me to believe that love can help you change for the better, to understand well, to sacrifice for the sake of your love ones, to care so much, to express yourself better and a lot more. 

The story is not what you think it is. It is not only a  kinky-sultry-full-of-sex-x-rated-scene story but it has a lot more of it. 

It's up to you to find out and I tell you, the story is great. 

Reminder: I recommend you to read the book first before seeing the movie. 

Love,

Kit x

P.S.
Please let me know what you think about the book and the trailer. :)
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I will be very glad to have a new circle of friends. :)


P.P.S.
When will be the second movie?

The good thing though...

The good thing that silence and constantly talking to yourself is nothing but an empty shell of peace and freedom.

Peace from all your misery and I do believe that aside from the enemy outside you should beat yourself first before moving on. That way you can gain full control of yourself. Being not affected and influenced by the outer force, their beliefs and practices.

Freedom from all they hold against your integrity and moral values.

How I might suppose to tell them what had happened to my life and to myself?

How I might suppose to tell them that aside from my physical misery, I also have this emotional fight I have to win before it will completely consume the best of me.

How I might suppose to tell them that I am almost losing, but for the sake of the few who keeps on believing in what I can do I keep on fighting?

How I might suppose to tell them that fear is eating me up? The fear of everything that I might lost and lost further. I am so afraid that all of them will be gone and will never come back.

I have had enough of losing.

How I might suppose to tell them that what I am doing right now is my only way of avoiding hurt and pain? I fear a lot today.

I am creating things that really hurt me so bad  that when the time come of retaliation, just before He will take away someone away from me again, I will not get hurt so bad.

Why I am talking like this? Because it gives me therapy.

It helps me a little to relieve the pain inside. It is better this way than not talking at all because it gives me the chills and creepy feelings of being like a crazy bitch.

Papal Visit PH: Currently in Tacloban, tomorrow will be in Luneta

Currently, I am listening to my officemate's radio tuning to the ongoing mass celebration in Tacloban headed by the beloved Pope Francis.

I am kinda aware of everything starting from day one upon the arrival of the Pope until now.

The constant radio tuning of everybody or the t.v. marathon, all for the sake of the Papal visit.

I can feel the D O P E excitement of everybody.

Yesterday, I was a bit of a teary-eyed-overwhelmed-shocked-girl who watched how the sea of people waited patiently for the coming of the Pope and really I was so dumbstruck for the fact that I did not expect that there are a lot of believers out there and still faithful as ever.


It left me wondering: "How would it be like when God himself walks out of a plane or just simply descend on earth? Just imagine how crowded will it be. People shouting, crying, laughing and praying..."

It has put me in a sink hole and I couldn't help not to shed some tears, just out of no where it poured.

Maybe because of the fact that the Pope loves the people and how the people loves him so much.

Whatever the reasons, I am happy that people of the PH have been united again as one team.

REST DAY FOR THREE DAYS!

Yeah!
Believe it or not, we will going to have a 3 day rest day( NCR-National Capital Region, only) all because of the Papal Visit here in the Philippines.

I don't know if this is good for me because I have a lot of things to do and deadlines to finish with.

I don't want to be stagnant this time.

I want to do a lot of things because it helps a lot to let myself be preoccupied until I couldn't think of anything else other than working.

You know that feeling of getting used to something you're not used to before?

Like living your life everyday trying to avoid thinking of someone you used to be thinking every hour of your everyday?

That is how I feel everyday starting when the day we broke up.

Yeah, I think we did already, and it is kinda hard to let it sink deeper in my head.

Ahahaha!!!

Been trying real hard to let myself live normal.

I don't have a normal life since 16, tho.

I just couldn't take it when no one really understands me aside from me, myself and I.

But surely,though, there's somebody who can relate to my complicated story.

All alone big time! Even if I surround myself with my friends and relatives.

This is beyond sick!

(I'LL JUST KEEP IT TO MYSELF, hahaha)