February 22, 2014

Dear My Diary,

I would like you to know that I am so thankful that I m still alive today. And I was just stunned for the fact that when I was at the brink of my madness-self-destruction-through-terrified-thinking, there was this someone who helped me ease the awful feeling that I carried for the last week.

He is actually my not-so-biological brother, but he is still my so great brother who knows me better just like my best friend.

I so happened to missed him last night because he called right after I punch the send button of my cellphone to deliver the message of mine,poetry in form, 'cause I know, poetry is my only way of telling what is on my mind and in my heart.


And that, for almost this month of February, I feel so awful you know, feeling awful for the fact that I've been into a situation that I felt that I am just a good for nothing, taken for granted and ignored.
(Gosh! for the last time, I wanna say this one, "I-DON'T-WANNA-FEEL-THAT-WAY-AGAIN-NOT-THIS-TIME-AND-NEVER-WILL-BE-IN-THE-FUTURE!!!!")

But now, thank goodness! i feel so light-headed and that I am actually in the state of OK-ness!

THANKS TO MY RELIABLE AND WORTHY 3 OF A KIND SET OF FRIENDS!


Lots of love for myself,
Miss M.

Suddenly...

Dear Diary,

Suddenly I am hit. I got a super high fever last night and I don't know why. 

Sabi nila, over fatigue na hindi ko pinapansing napapagod na ako pero sige pa rin ng sige.

Natutuwa lang ako kay inay at ate kasi andiyan sila. There's always a first time. And kagabi after so long years of being alone on my own taking good care of myself and my health, naranasan ko ulit yung may nag-alaga saken, at nagpakita ng suportang walang katumbas. Though, ayaw ko talaga na may makakitang may sakit ako.

Sabi nila kagabi sa akin habang nakahigh ako sa sobrang taas ng lagnat ko... "Kala ko ba hindi tinatamaan ng sakit ang alien?" Nangyare? LOL!

Anyways... I'll always be thankful.

I'll be okay.

Love,

Miss M