You know the feeling of emptiness?
You're laughing your heart out but deep within you you know that you're in deep emptiness.
No matter how you smile, no matter how much you try to be okay but then again it all wasted.
It's like there's no more room to fix yourself and no more time to heal your wounds and no one's there to listen and no one's there to stay and you're being left alone to face your pain and miseries.
No one can see your pain and monsters and fears and troubles and hatred.
It's like you're not belong into this world. Life is an unfair battle. You cannot win without fighting and you cannot lose either without trying to fight.
I feel so tired...hahaha(see I am laughing again)
I am kinda a laughing freak nowadays and my office mates starts to worry.
Little did they know that this is my last resort to hide every damage of my being. Well hello??? Am I not allowed to laugh and to smile on my own miseries? Hahaha!!!
It looks like I don't have a good morning at all. It is all the same anyway. Everyday of my everyday.
P.S.
I wanna go home... But hey! I remember, WHERE IS MY HOME?
